Happy day 50 - woo hoo!
Meditation practice proved to be an invaluable tool this weekend - helping me to "get through" some of the tougher aspects of the experience; restaurant food, hotel sleeping (or not sleeping in this case), and lots of back and forth driving. Overall, it was a very full weekend!
I feel so grateful to have had this time with Chephren though. I love watching him play and interact with his teammates. So wonderful and so worth it!
Hockey moms can meditate too!
Two years ago (in March), I signed up for a one-year shamanic training program with my friend and teacher Sarah Salter-Kelly. That first year was all about directly experiencing shamanistic practices; ceremony, rituals and rites, songs, prayers, elemental healing, dance, meditation, journey, breathwork, the creation of medicine tools and of course, working in circle. As a community, we met four times throughout the course of the year (at each of the equinoxes and solstices).
After the first weekend, I knew that my life was about to change quite drastically. For one thing, I was inspired to begin a life of sobriety, which I have maintained ever since. For those of you who knew me before, this was and is a pretty significant change in itself. Sobriety proved to be just the beginning however, and over the past two years I have experienced many more changes along the way.
I feel as though I am experiencing a literal metamorphosis into something (someone) different. She even has a different name; Nahanni, and I truly feel as though I am becoming her, little by little, each day bringing me closer to fully embodying/embracing her.
After the first year, a smaller group of us (6) decided to continue on with Sarah and learn how to integrate shamanism into our healing practices. The past year's training has given me even more tools to use with my clients and I feel so grateful for that.
The four-part soul retrieval process is complete and I am feeling more clear about the process itself and how it might impact my daily life. My soul retrieval turned out to be all about denying my own needs when it looked like it might threaten any of my main attachment relationships. In other words, I had a pattern of "staying put" when in my true heart of hearts, I have always wanted to spread my wings and fly.
It will be interesting to see where this new knowledge and way of seeing takes me. I really do feel ready to fly again... both literally and metaphorically.
Post fire ceremony portion of soul retrieval process.
This week I not only had the opportunity to facilitate soul retrieval for a few other people, but I had the chance to experience it myself.
I have to admit that coming into the week-long training, my critical mind had its doubts about "soul retrieval". The truth is, I don't feel broken.
I do, however, feel fragmented at times, and I am beginning to understand this process a little bit better as I experience it with my felt sense.
From my experience, soul retrieval feels like dropping or letting go of any barriers that you have built that block you from your true essence.
I am at a 5-day Shamanic training all week so I will be getting plenty of meditations in and plenty of journeys as I experience a soul retrieval process.
It was quite a profound day overall.
Tonight, when I got home, Perry asked me if I would journey him so we did that. The video is pretty funny... you can see (again) just how "dreamy" journeying can leave you. Pretty funny stuff.
Now who's full of it?!
In this video I talk about *boredom*... yep. I found boredom in this process. I have resistance to even admitting that, but it's true so I'm owning it.
Bored... and doing it anyway!
Details, details, details...
Back to a morning practice today.
I talk in the video about how sometimes the morning meditation becomes all about the "list" - all of the things you need to get done that day.
Morning is the "East" time on the Medicine Wheel; the equivalent of Spring. We travel through each of the directions every day. In the East, it really is all about possibilities. There is a certain "buzz" as you look forward and anticipate all that is to come.
Meditating in the East is very different than meditating in the West (the time that we have been meditating lately).
Just good to notice this and take it in, ideally, we would work towards two daily meditations; one in the East and one in the West... however we are taking it one day at a time!
THE JOY OF LESS.
I have already told you about the year I did a non-consumption challenge and how profoundly life-changing that was for me.
This past summer, the Waterman and I completed a round of Marie Kondo's "Tidying up" process and eliminated a TON of our stuff. We streamlined many (but not all) of the rooms in our home, our wardrobes in particular.
The result has in fact been an experience of more joy. Less clutter in our home seemingly has resulted in less clutter internally.
Lately I am realizing that I need to continue with this process. Continue to simply and reduce my belongings.
What a wonderful process to be in meditation with!
As the Waterman continues with the renovations on the house, the meditation room was out of commission for a few days. We got back in there tonight for what turned out to be a super deep meditation for me. I am laughing as I watch the video back; I don't think I've quite made it all the way back into my body yet. Lol.
The benefits of meditating at the very end of the day speak for themselves in this video: calm, relaxed, wound down and ready for an amazing sleep!
Wowza! We are pretty close to the 10% mark already. The year is flying by!!!
I was wondering about how many people have already abandoned their "New Year's Resolution" by now? I did end up doing a bunch of research on the statistics of this, but the data isn't consistent (or likely accurate). I mean, who likes to admit that they didn't follow through with something?
The thing is though: behaviours can be pretty tricky to change. Like REALLY tricky. That is because they aren't simple. Everything is connected to everything else.
For example, let's say your New Year's Resolution (or goal) is to lose weight, work out more or eat better. Well for one thing, that is pretty vague. What are the parameters of that? How will you know if you have achieved that? The goal lacks specificity. In education, a term that we use when we are setting goals for our students is the acronym: SMART goal. Is the goal Specific? Measureable? Agreed Upon? Realistic? Time-Based?
I think our meditation goal is all of these things, which is likely one of the reasons we are having success with it so far. We even have a tracking mechanism built in (thank you YouTube), and even though very few (if any) people are watching, we are hyper aware of this very public commitment that we have made.
So, if you have abandoned your New Year's Resolution already... do not despair. You get to get up and try again! This time, maybe set some kind of parameters around it for yourself. Use the SMART philosophy if it resonates with you.
A bit of a reflection of the journey so far (we started at the beginning of November with our efforts to meditate every day). In the past, when we have committed to meditating every day, we noticed that our lives significantly changed around us (for the better). A lot of stuff just started happening; the "stuck in the muck" feeling was far less of an issue.
And then... we just stopped.
So, last November we re-committed ourselves to the process and as we say in the video, (big) shifts are happening for us again; renovations, changes in relationships, changes in health/wellness, changes in awareness, changes at work.
It is pretty cool actually, especially when you can take a step back and have a look at the bigger picture.
Another night meditation and another powerful journey for me.
The universe has been bringing me quite a few books about elephants lately... (I am a voracious reader and read about 1-2 books per week). In this journey, I ended up working with one particular elephant, Maura, the matriarch of her tribe and we were accompanied by her daughter Maisy. She invited me to ride on her back into the dark summer night. We began by walking West, further into the darkness, when all of a sudden we did a 180 degree turn, and started walking towards the East, just as the first hints of dawn were appearing on the horizon. It's like she remembered that she could CHOOSE to walk away from darkness and back into the light.
This feels symbolic and significant given the mental health struggles that have been present for me of late. It is a powerful reminder (and a visceral one, which is why I love journey so much) that I do get to CHOOSE. That I do have power in the situation. That I get to REmember my birthright: Joy, and come back to it again and again and again.
I am so very grateful to this powerful guide and this profound experience.
Today was a chance for more of a group meditation - Chephren (my 8 year old son) joined us and impressed us with how absolutely still and calm he could be! We sat for 15 minutes and he did not make a peep or a move a muscle.
He is still a little bit camera shy (although he is a huge YouTube fan and is trying to build my channel at the end of the video), but his insight is accurate. Meditating helps you to be calm.
The Waterman and I once read that all we need to do to completely shift the consciousness of our planet is to teach the next generation to meditate.
I would agree.
First day of month #2!!! We made it one whole month of our daily meditation challenge already.
In today's video, I tak about intuitively placing myself beside Perry and actually doing Reiki on an injury to his abdomen during our meditation. I did my Reiki Level 1&2 training quite a few years ago and I do use it as a part of my healing practice on occasion. I also use it quite a bit on myself and on friends and family members as the situation arises. In this case, there was no forethought, it just kind of happened.
This is such a good example of just following my intuition. Not asking questions or getting caught up in my rational mind, but simply showing up in "what wants to be". It was an interesting experience.