Day 6 - #365MeditationChallenge

The power of positive pressure! 

I was wondering when my first tiny bit of resistance to this whole "meditate every day and record it" challenge was going to show up and it turns out that it was today (I know, a bit early... we are only on day 6!). However, I was expecting it, and totally prepared for what to do when it showed up.

You see, I have done something like this before... and although it is a different type of challenge, the way that it showed up and the overall journey is/will be similar.    

Back in January of 2010, fresh from the aftermath of yet another season of consuming/buying/using/gifting/wrapping/throwing away TOO MUCH STUFF, I found myself in the pit of despair about it all.  Feeling that I was at my wit's end, I decided to sit down and write about it.  I was so damn sick of the excess STUFF in my life (and totally disgusted with my part in the cycle of it) that I decided that I was going to STOP.  I sat down, started a blog called "MareBare Necessities: Living with Less" and committed to one year of non-consumption.  Outloud.  On the Internet.    

Now, admittedly, it was a bit of a rash decision to start that challenge.  It was totally unplanned actually, and I had no idea what the heck I was in for.  

One year later, I found myself and my life completely transformed.  Just for starters, as a family, we reduced our annual spending by $40,000.  What began simply as a quest to "buy less stuff" became more and more about reducing our footprint, growing/making our own food/clothes/medicines/cleaning products ourselves, and generally, living more self-sufficiently and sustainably.  I learnt more in that year than I could possibly tell you here - it should probably be a book all on its own someday.

Looking back on it now, I can recall that I encountered some resistance early on in the MareBare Challenge as well.  Probably somewhere around the end of the first week when I went to the grocery store and saw something "shiny" (aka, new book, nail polish, scarf, mittens, etc.). I can remember thinking to myself, "Holy shit.  Did I really commit to going a whole YEAR without buying any new consumer goods?!"  Um yes.  You did.  

Feeling like a disappointed child, I put said "shiny" bauble back and returned to the "food" section of the store (I was still allowing myself to buy food - although we began to eat/shop differently for that along the way too).  As I continued my shopping that day, I began to shift my thinking away from the thing that I couldn't have, and started thinking instead about what I would write about when I got home from the store that day.  This became my way of moving through old patterns and behaviours of spending, and learning/creating new ones.  Some of what I was experiencing must have clicked for some other people too because by the end of the year, I had a monthly readership of about 50,000 people.  

So, when the resistance to this new challenge showed up today in the form of a critical story in my head ("What?  Are you really going to meditate every day and make a one minute video?  Why would you say that?  What is the point?  What are you going to talk about for 365 minutes?").  

And, if I'm honest, the truth is that I don't know.  I just know that I'm going to.  Because I said I would.  And because meditating every single day isn't going to make things worse... actually, it will probably make things better.  But I won't know that until I do it.    

And the videos/blog?  That is the positive pressure.  And guess what people?  It's working.