Day 47 - #365MeditationChallenge

The four-part soul retrieval process is complete and I am feeling more clear about the process itself and how it might impact my daily life.  My soul retrieval turned out to be all about denying my own needs when it looked like it might threaten any of my main attachment relationships.  In other words, I had a pattern of "staying put" when in my true heart of hearts, I have always wanted to spread my wings and fly.   

It will be interesting to see where this new knowledge and way of seeing takes me.  I really do feel ready to fly again... both literally and metaphorically. 


Day 46 - #365MeditationChallenge

Post fire ceremony portion of soul retrieval process.   

This week I not only had the opportunity to facilitate soul retrieval for a few other people, but I had the chance to experience it myself.   

I have to admit that coming into the week-long training, my critical mind had its doubts about "soul retrieval".  The truth is, I don't feel broken.   

I do, however, feel fragmented at times, and I am beginning to understand this process a little bit better as I experience it with my felt sense.   

From my experience, soul retrieval feels like dropping or letting go of any barriers that you have built that block you from your true essence.  


Day 44 - #365MeditationChallenge

I am at a 5-day Shamanic training all week so I will be getting plenty of meditations in and plenty of journeys as I experience a soul retrieval process.   

It was quite a profound day overall.   

Tonight, when I got home, Perry asked me if I would journey him so we did that.  The video is pretty funny... you can see (again) just how "dreamy" journeying can leave you.  Pretty funny stuff. 


Day 18 - #365MeditationChallenge

I found myself actually craving for meditation time today, and feeling so grateful that I could make the time/space for it.  I had a 30 minute journey-style meditation today. I set some intentions at the start and prayed for guidance, hoping to get some clarity around and/or move some uncomfortable emotional energy I have been feeling in my body. 

As I speak to in the video, I believe that our prayers are always answered, however sometimes just not in the form that you are expecting.  I did go on a journey and receive some guidance, but at this point I am not totally sure what to make of it and THAT'S OK!   

Sometimes it can take days, weeks or even months for clarity about a journey to set in.   

The other interesting thing I will share is how often (for me anyway) the answer seems to show up in one of the myths/stories/legends of our culture.  For instance, this journey happened to be about the story of Peter Pan.  As I said, right now it's all a bit of a mystery for me but I will sit with it as it unfolds. 

Happy Wednesday to you! 


Day 9 - #365MeditationChallenge

I love Shamanic Journey.   

If you watch today's video, it plays like an advertisement for "post journey bliss".  Today's meditation left me feeling light, excited and bubbly. 

Every meditation experience is different for me.  I think this is because I have been trained in a whole bunch of different types of meditation and truthfully, I like that it is different every time.  The type of meditation I find myself in always seems to be the exact type that I need at that particular time.  Today, as you will see in the video, I found myself in a Shamanic Journey.  

This is not surprising to me, given that when I said my prayer and set my intentions for the session, I did ask for help and information.  Often, when I ask for that, my body/mind will automatically start to journey.   

Today's journey was a whopper!  It was so full of symbolism!  Anubis turned up to guide me (the Egyptian God that has the dog head) and took me floating in a Moses-like basket down the Nile River (we started in a river in the Andes).  We floated past the Sphinx and the Pyramids and got out of our baskets to observe alchemist  working in a shady half-cave structure.  He was too busy to interact with us, but I got the strong message to re-visit the book "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho.  I read that book about 10 years ago but apparently it is due for a re-read.  Next I was guided into a Garden of Eden (of sorts) and there was more symbolism (a lighthouse, purple fairy mushrooms, etc.). It was all very vivid and super interesting.  I think the best part was seeing myself all dressed up like a blonde Cleopatra.  


See?  Fun.  Who wouldn't want to explore their subconscious like this? 

You can perhaps see why facilitating journeys is not only once of my favorite ways of exploring meditation, but also one of my favorite ways of working with my clients.


Day 5 - #365MeditationPractice

Wow!  A minute is sure not a very long time to make a point!  I decided to limit the daily videos to around in minute in length so that they didn't take up too much time if people wanted to watch them everyday.  We used to follow a similar meditation challenge that came with daily videos and found the videos were too long so we eventually quit watching.  I love to write so I thought that I could post the quick video and then if I had more to say I could write about it here.  Today is one of those days where I felt rushed in the video with a lot more to say.

The reason is likely that today's meditation was all about managing anxiety.  I have struggled with anxiety (and depression - they are kissing cousins) for most of my life.  Last night I was having a bout of anxiety and I found myself unable to sleep (until about 2 am).  There was so much anxiety coursing through my body that it literally felt like I was vibrating and almost floating up off the bed.  If you have suffered from anxiety, you know that this is such an uncomfortable feeling.   

As I lay there, I tried to get into a meditation.  I tried using my breath to calm down my nervous system.  After an hour or two, nothing seemed to be working so I grabbed a rock that I keep in my nightstand and held it in my hand.  I began pouring all of my anxious energy (and thought streams) into the rock.  Immediately I felt things begin to shift and my hand and the rock got very hot with energy.  I finally slept.

This morning, there are still traces of anxiety left over, so I decided to use my meditation practice to release this energy as well as ask for clarity.  I carry a mesa (bag of medicine stones) which I have been working with for the past few years and I selected my quartz crystal to work with during this meditation.   

Using prayer to state my intentions out loud, I began to move the crystal around my body to the parts where I felt the most anxious energy (throat, third eye region and chest).   

Now, afterwards, I feel much calmer and more grounded than I did going into the meditation.  

I share this here because, like me, I know that many other people struggle with anxiety.  If you are one of those people and you haven't tried this - try it!  You have nothing to lose!

One last thing before I sign off for the day, I wanted to share a cute story about this technique.

About 5 years ago, I walked into my bedroom to see my three-year-old son lying on my yoga mat with some of my crystals and stones placed strategically all over his body.  He had his eyes closed and everything!  "Chephren!"  I said, "what are you doing?!"  His eyes flew open, alive and sparkling: "I'm meditatin mama"!