We watched a movie this weekend - Tomorrowland, a futuristic Sci-Fi film. It was far from being the best film I've ever watched, however it did have a bit of substance. More notably, a large part of its storyline hinged on the Cherokee Legend about the two wolves:
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”
This story has always resonated with me, and really reminds me of my own inner struggle, especially as it has pertained to my depression.
Anyway, this is not a post on depression, but rather on self-promotion… and how much I loathe it.
As a life coach, I am a firm believer in possibilities. Yep, I am an eternal optimist, what they refer to in the film as dreamer (much like Casey in the above-mentioned film, whose optimism, by the way, saves the world).
So, a few years ago, I fully committed to my own dream by starting a coaching/writing business. Like most coaches, I didn't know the first thing about starting or running my own business, and right off of the hop, it became apparent that self-promotion was going to be a "necessary evil" of growing my business. Blech.
I played the game at first, I bought a few advertising spots here and there. I started to build my "list". I posted on social media. I blogged a lot. I gave away free stuff.
And it worked, kind of. But I hated it. And to be totally honest, I still do.
I have tried to make it feel good. I really have. Last year, I took Tad Hargrave's & Mark Silver's workshop on Heart-Based Business and Marketing for Hippies. It was right up my alley in terms of their energy behind the approach (and these two guys ROCK), however the action items that came from that workshop are honestly still sitting idly on my list of "to-do's". I just don't have the energy for them. I don't have the passion or the drive.
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE what I do. I love to teach, coach, give talks, write and sing songs, and create ceremony, but I SO don't love to sell it. I just don't. It takes me months and months to muster up the patience and energy to put out a newsletter. What I do know is that if it feels like crap in my body (and it does), I just won't do it.
I have a friend who also works in this business (self-help/spirituality/personal growth) and she is BRILLIANT at what she does. I know from speaking with her that she shares similar thoughts… tired and frustrated of the hustle that comes with trying to get your work out into the world. She tells me that in other parts of the world they have a bit of a different system. There are people who make a good business of organizing and planning events/workshops for you (and they take a percentage).
All I have to say about this is YES PLEASE.
You think the Universe heard me? Yeah. I think so too.
Until then, I'm going to spend more of my time doing what I love, not on what I loathe. I am going to write, I'm going to sing songs, I'm going to create ceremony, I'm going to go back to doing what I love to do, simply because I love to co-create with the Divine.
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We only get one wild and precious life. Let's live it.
Nahanni, Dancing Coyote Woman
(PS: Curious about the name thing?! -- me too, more on that later)
Photograph courtesy of Jody Goodwin Photography